I’m pretty obsessed with The
Civil Wars right now. Their songs are so
amazing, and actually helping me deal with yesterday’s outcomes.
I am so grateful for the
sun. It’s actually getting WARM
outside. Oh, I hope we have a nice
spring. We deserve a nice spring. The sun is definitely helping me avoid giving
in to the depressive feelings that cross my heart. That, and the amazing people in my life. I really am blessed, I think.
Today I really wanted to fly
away. Fly away to North Carolina to see
my sistahs. I had to fight the urge to
turn towards the airport instead of the office today. But I silenced the cravings before they
turned into impulses and drove to work.
It was actually pretty quiet today.
Another thing to be thankful for.
I am seriously considering flying
out though, next month. I can’t promise
anything right now. But I am seriously
considering it. I want to see my sistahs
in real life, and visit my oldest friend and her mom. It’s been way too long. Plus, I will need an escape from life here
after tax season. Although it hasn’t
been too nutty this year yet, I know we’re in for a tumultuous next few
weeks. The storm is coming.
Today I listened to the Poison
and Wine song like a million times. I
love it. And it’s so true – our mouths
can be poisonous, but they can also be lovely, like wine. I really try to keep the poison from forming,
but sometimes it sneaks up. Just being
honest. I guess that’s one thing I can
work on now. And it’s so easy to see the
poison in other people, and sometimes it outweighs the wine. And sometimes it’s hard to turn away because
you want to accept all parts of a person.
But sometimes it’s not worth fighting for. Sigh.
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