is the end near?

I just got off the phone with my aunt. She told me that Grandma wrote out her obituary and funeral plans and sent it to her. She said that Grandma said that God kept waking her up each night until she did it. Does that mean the end is near for her? It kind of makes sense to me. I mean, she's gotten progressively worse this week, and I was kind of wondering yesterday if this was it. I have mixed feelings about that. I love my grandma more than anyone else in this world, yes, even more than my parents, brother, and Mowie. So of course I don't want her to die. But on the other hand, she isn't the same person she was two years ago and daily life has gotten harder for her. So I think it might finally be time for her to go and be with Grandpa. She's wanted that ever since he passed away. I'm not sure if my family is really prepared for this though...I don't know if Dad can handle it. I'm ready. I know what to do.

I just hate to see my grandma so sick and miserable. I hate to see her have trouble reading things and seeing things. I hate to see her deteriorate. Obviously, God's got a plan. Let's just hope He takes Dad into account with it.

Today Mom and I took Grandma to the urgent care in Mac. The doctor there said that she probably has a mix of allergies and pneumonia. Except she hasn't had a fever, which is key in pneumonia. He gave her some anti-biotics an inhaler-thing, and some Zyrtec for her allergies. Mom's going to try to get her into Rumbaugh's (Grandma's normal doctor, who was sick today) office tomorrow. Hopefully Rumbaugh will get to the bottom of this.

My interview for a receptionist job is tomorrow in Mac. I hope it goes well! I need moolah!

Hope you all had a lovely Halloween! Mine was extremely uneventful, but I kind of let it be. :-)