it could be so easy.

there are times i like the silence, but not lately.
we hold too much in. WHY?
why don't we just say what is on our freaking minds?
why can't we just be honest.....why can't YOU be honest?
silence does not equal honesty. silence equals knives in my heart.
most of the time i just tell myself i'm too sensitive. maybe i am.
but maybe i'm not. maybe there are reasons for these intense feelings.

i thought we were comfortable around each other.
but there are still walls.
i don't know why people think they can't trust me.
i do not get it.
my whole life it was the other way around....i barely trusted anyone.
mostly everyone trusted me.
now i trust others more. but these walls leave me empty-handed and sad.
sad. sad. SAD.

i hate it. i really really really do.