Life definitely moves faster as we get older.....until we retire and then in most cases it slows to a dead halt. Most days at work (which I suppose would be everyday since VA only allows me two days a week now, arrrrrg!) I find myself wishing my life was like that of my client, endless days where I do not have to report to anyone. Endless days where I could have the freedom to express myself artistically again, finally write a book, release the passion in my heart. But I suppose I have to be fair, as life is not. I do not want my client's situation exactly, in terms of her physical and mental limitations. It's rather annoying that the scale is always so unbalanced in this life. I've been blessed with great gifts, great talents, but unless I want to end up living on the street, it's hard to really find the time to use them. I'm usually too exhausted from my responsibilities and the burdens I steal from those I love to do anything worthwhile. I'm hoping to change that, as the leaves transform from green to yellow, orange, and red. I want to change with the leaves.
It's been over a month since I updated. Needless to say, though I will say it, a lot has happened. Here's a list. I may elaborate, if this energy sticks around.
August 10, 2008: Hollie and Darrel got married. Fourth wedding I'd gone to this year, and I
would say it was the best. It was small, happy, and I really felt like I belonged. I want my wedding to be like that.
August 11: I took my car in to get the brakes checked AGAIN. That's a long, dumb, exhausting story. After two additional trips to BRAKE TEAM (on the fence of whether I really trust them or not....), my car is happy again.
Also on this day...or rather the night, Natasha and I slept outside to catch the meteor shower. We saw like 10 or 12 meteors before we conked out. We heard later that there were like 60 meteors that night. I'm content with the ones we saw, because God is great and he made them big ones.
August 15-17: I spent the weekend at the beloved Christian Renewal Center with Kimberlee, Shannon, Anna, Ruth, and Rachel. It was glorious. Ninety-degree weather and a nice cold creek to float around in. And of course, fantastic company.
August 18: I visited my neighbor from the farm, and spent some time with Mowie. He lives with her and her family now. But he still remembered me. I don't know if I'll ever love another cat the way I loved him. He has lost weight now that he's a completely outside cat. He looks like maybe he weighs 9 lbs. now instead of 13. I'm happy for him. He looks happy.
Oh yeah. Also on this day, in the morning before I went to see Mowie, I got to meet Grandma at the ER. She sprained her wrist opening a package of cookies, though the over-reactors at the place she lives thought it might be a blood clot since it was so swollen and awful-looking. Thus, the ER that we both hate. She's okay though, praise God.
August 29: Dinner for Bryan's 21st with the parents. It was pretty good, considering Dad's still deep in depression. I think Bryan had a good time, and that's really the most important thing. I got him shotglasses. He laughed. I love him!
Oh yeah, before that I hung out with Joseph. It was very nice. We walked to the cemetary by his house and there were three deer. Cemetaries are awesome.
August 30: Natasha and I took Yoko (she was in town for the weekend! from Japan!), Shan, and Shan's brother to Cannon Beach. It was a wonderful day. I love the beach.
September 3: Carina moved out. Not next door, like previously planned. Out. I miss her too much.
September 4: I moved into Carina's old room. I have a real closet now. And I can lay on my floor if I want, I have that much space. Hallelujah!
September 5: Dad started a new treatment for his depression. It's kind of a last resort, so we are all really hoping it works.
September 6: Bryan's Official 21st Birthday Celebration at my house. There were too many reasons we couldn't do it closer to his real birthday. I made dinner for ten people. It was awesome. Everyone had a good time. It couldn't have been planned better if a professional planned it. After dinner, most of us went to karaoke at my new favorite place, Suki's in southwest. It was AWESOME. Bryan and I had been dreaming of that moment for three years.
September 7: Bill came to Portland!!!! I had lunch with him and Karen and Asher and Tabbeee. It was fantastic. Bill and I had an excellent conversation before he left to go back to Ashland. Man, I miss those days!
September 11: Karaoke with ALISON. This may become routine.
September 13: Interview with a CPA for an administrative assistant job. It was two hours long, but I got the job!!! YESSSSSS! Can you feel my joy? I am unbelievably happy about this.
September 14: Birthday Celebration at Silver Falls for Megan, Bryan's girlfriend. Did I mention that before? Bryan has a girlfriend. Since June. I like her. There may be a future to this.
September 18: Spent the morning with Grandma. Took her to the eye doctor and tried to solve as many of her problems that would be allowed in three hours. I came close to solving all of them, for that day. Went to Joseph's after that. Watched a movie. Fell asleep. Ahhhhhh.
September 19: Walked up Rocky Butte, the awesome hill by my house. It took 45 minutes and I was a little achy, but it was totally worth it. Natasha and I watched the sunset from up there. It was amazing. I want to do that everyday. Go away, stupid clouds!
Today I am starting my awesome gardening project. I am too excited about this. But that's okay. Our yards will finally look amazing, come spring!
I think that's it for now. Maybe I will write more later. Today probably won't move fast, which is exactly what I need right now. Home all day. Small projects. Good company.
Sunset at Rocky Butte.
1 comment:
ah george. i read. i enjoy. gorgeous. you are gorgeous.
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