Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Where do you go when your life is literally threatened?



And like a floodgate, the words come back to me.  I’m really excited about this re-opening….perhaps it will lead to the book I’ve been conceptualizing….no promises.



My mind keeps playing the events over and over.  Could I have found out sooner?  Would it have helped anything?  I just remember….she messaged me on the day of the party telling me that it was cancelled.  That she had been in an accident.  She couldn’t call anyone, her phone was lost in the accident.  She would tell me details later, she promised.  Naturally, I thought she meant she got in a car accident.  I asked if she was okay.  She said she would be.  I thought that meant that her nerves were frazzled, she needed to figure out the logistics from the car accident.  Because it was a car accident, right?

So I left her alone.  I did what I promised and called our mutual friend.  I ended up going to the friend’s house and spending the afternoon/evening with her family.  It was lovely.

Then Monday came.  A phone call.  “Melanie, I just heard April’s voice on the radio!  Phillip beat her up!  The cops are looking for him!”  
What?  You’ve got to be kidding.  She….she was in a car accident….oh my god.  

Bryan wasn’t kidding.  I immediately looked it up online, it was everywhere all of a sudden.  All over the news.  Top story.  One of my dearest and closest friends, right there on my TV screen.  Slashed.  Stitches.  Blood.  Tears.  And yet, she was still my friend, relaying the details of the attack in the exact way she speaks.  Factual and well-stated.  Alive.  She made it out ALIVE.  Angel made it out ALIVE.  The children made it out ALIVE, and didn’t get taken. 

He broke into her house.  He attacked her and her boyfriend.  He left them with fatal injuries, yet they didn’t die.  He tried to take the children.  One of them boldly stood up to him, and I am so, so proud of her.  She’s five.  A five-year-old made him flee the scene.     

To this day I have still only heard bits and pieces of what really happened, slivers of how angels saved her, Angel, and the kids.  How God protected them.  But everything that I’ve heard is enough for me to be sick, so sick, every time I think of the horrendous act that her ex-husband did.  I was in shock for two days after hearing the news.  I was numb.  I couldn’t feel anything.  I couldn’t scream.  I couldn’t cry.  I couldn’t react.  I was just sick.  Numb.  I knew this guy, at one time.  He was my friend’s husband.  He was the father of her kids.  And now he is a monster to me.  I mean, his image had already been turning into a monster in the last year, throughout the divorce.  But this, this just separates him even more from the man I thought I knew.  It’s just so sickening to me. 

Part of me really wants to play the person who can see the good in him.  Explain away his issues, why he acted in such a way.  He must be suffering from PTSD.  He’s sick.  He has mental problems.  All that is probably true, actually.  But it is no excuse.  I cannot excuse his behavior, no matter how much I long to see both sides of everything.  Because what he did is just truly inexcusable. 

It has now been six weeks since the attack and the police are still looking for Phillip.  For a few weeks there, I was terrified he’d show up at my house and attack me, even though he really has no reason to.  It doesn’t help that I was living alone.  I just hate the fact that he’s still out there somewhere, anywhere.  He could be gearing up for another attack.  I’m terrified he will try again.  And my friend has to live in fear until he’s caught. 

I’m posting the link to her story here.  If you see him, anywhere, CALL THE POLICE.  He is dangerous.

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