waking thoughts

at times I wake up from the dreams and wonder why I waste my time thinking about things I know are never going to happen. why can't I get the extravagant mansion and "perfect" life out of my head? I've come to terms with the fact that I'll never be THAT successful, nor do I even want to be. I'd lose myself in all that pizazz. so why can't I get the big houses and "perfect" lives out of my head? and why can't my relatives be happy with what they have instead of diving deeper and deeper in to debt with things they think will bring them happiness? why can't they settle on the fact that they have so much more than so many people ever will, like I have? I do get caught up in that "gotta have it" mentality from time to time but I always try to remember that I don't need lots of that stuff. I should just focus on needs, not wants. So many people don't have the luxury of even thinking about wants, and really, I'm in no position financially either. I guess I'm just sick of everyone imposing the "you can have whatever you want" idea on me. Sometimes it's really not good to have whatever you want. we need to be asking ourselves why we want what we want. I think some of us would be suprised with the answers we come up with. I'm eternally grateful for growing up with basically no want for material objects. sometimes they just get in the way of who you are, take up too much of your attention that could be better spent on those you love and care about. Yeah, I'm like everybody else in some ways, but I can hold myself back from things - God and I have control.