exactly.

A friend introduced me to this song yesterday. It describes EXACTLY how I've been feeling lately. I listened to it on the way back from Portland today and started crying because it is so true, I have been such a chicken lately and just taking the easy way out of everything. I'm finally waking up a bit it seems, and coming to terms with what my life has become, what direction its taken. I've been feeling for awhile that I'm not doing exactly what I should be, but I've been to afraid to take any risks, basically, to follow what I think God is telling me to do. Which....I think, is to go on a mission trip. But I'm not completely sure. And of course, that will have its own set of complications, such as what to do about my finances, job, etc. So we'll see. It's gonna take prayer. Anyway....here's the song!

Natalie Grant: Awaken

Sometimes I feel like, I'm just existing.
I'm not really living.
I'm only watching, the time slip away.
I've forgotten who, I am in You.
I'm not who I'm meant to be, no.
I'm drifting farther away from my, destiny

Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken Your Power and take control
Awaken the Passion to live for You, Lord
Awaken me

My Soul is longing, my heart is searching,
I'm desperate for You to move,
give me a hunger, pull me closer...
I'm crying out to You

Awaken my heart,
Awaken my soul,
Awaken Your Power and take control,
Awaken the Passion to live for You,
I want to live for you.

Awaken my heart, oh!
Awaken my soul,
Awaken Your Power and take control,
Awaken the Passion to live for You, Lord.

Open my eyes, so I can see Your presence
Dwelling inside.
Wake me up, 'cause I can't live another minute,
If I'm not shining... Your light.

Awaken my heart,
Awaken my soul,
Awaken the Passion,
In me... Ooh...Yeah
Awaken me

(Chorus x2)
Lord, awaken me, to live my destiny.
Lord, awaken me and shine Your light through me.
Lord, awaken me, to live my destiny.
Lord, awaken me and shine Your light through me.

Awaken my heart,
Awaken my soul,
Awaken your Power and take control,
Awaken your Passion,
to live for you,
to live for you... Yeah, yeah, yeah

Wake me up Lord.
Give me your passion, Jesus.
I want to live for you